Blessed are the "Paupers"

"We will have yearnings and desires for certain things, and even suffer as a result of their going unfulfilled, but not until we are at a limit of desperation will we ask... A pauper does not ask out of an reason other than the completely hopeless and painful condition of his poverty. He is not ashamed to beg- blessed are the paupers in spirit." (Chambers 187). It makes perfect sense, those who are wealthy do not beg, and they certainly do not need charity. But on the other hand, people who are poor (paupers) beg for help, from people who have more than they do. How often do we, in our sinful nature, feel like we are all right. We got it all together, because we are making good money, just bought a new car, got a new girlfriend/boyfriend, or an infinite number of other pleasures that this world supplies. We need to live with the mentality of a pauper, someone who is destitute and needs constant help from Christ to survive.
Believe me; I know, this world and everything in it is an endless roller-coaster of highs and lows. One minute you have it together, the next, you don't.. It is tough! For instance, in earlier posts, I have talked about different things that I am and have been praying for. Also, in earlier posts, I have said that I do not know where God is leading... Soo... Those things sometimes feel like they are coming together, and other times they feel like they are not even a possibility. Ha... It is a sad process.. It is also a great example of the roller-coaster ride. I just have to keep trusting and praying that God will bring everything together in due time. I just hope that "due time" is soon.. I often have growing feelings of impatience... :-0.. Jeremiah 29: 11-14 has become one of my favorite passages.
Sooo, what does becoming a "pauper" mean? To be honest with you, I don't know.. It is a hard thing to fully grasp. There are so many different things that we go through every day. It is hard for me to humble myself in every situation. When I do something good, I get high on myself and think I am all that. But when something bad happens, I do not hesitate to turn to God and beg for help. So, I think that when something good happens we need to automatically turn to God and give him the glory for it, and at the same time, ask for guidance, even if everything is going well. It is a tough thing to do!!!!
P.S. I have no idea who reads these things. Ha, I don't know if anyone does. But if you do and would like to talk about anything with me, I would be happy to do that.. Thanks for reading!