The more things change, the more they stay the same. What an interesting quote... At the end of your day, have you ever paused for a few moments and tried to sum-up your entire day in a quote or phrase? It may seem strange to you to think about in this way, but I guarantee if you thought about it, you would agree that we all do this without even thinking about it. A lot of times people will say, "my day was crazy" or "my day went by so slow." These are both examples of summarization. If I could sum-up, the last number of my days in a phrase, it would be "the more things change, the more they stay the same." As I reflect on my last number of days, I can't help but think further back than that- days, months, years. Possibly.
The common theme throughout many of my blog posts has been that "my life, today, is nothing like what I thought it would be at this point in time." If someone were to ask me, 5 or 6 years ago, where I thought I would be in 5 years, I would have had a totally different answer than what has actually taken place. Life has taken many twists and turns I did not expect it to, but I am thankful that God has delivered me and sustained me up to this point in time. Life, for me, over the last 5 years has been a roller coaster ride and at times has totally caught me by surprise and as a matter of fact, knocked me to my knees many times too. The constant theme in my life has been the grace of God. Throughout every situation, I have learned tremendous lessons about myself, others and God. So the question is, would I have done things differently if I would have known the results of my experiences before they actually happened? The short answer is definitely "yes", and the long answer is definitely, still, "yes". I want to continue this post by saying that I am thankful for the life lessons I have learned, but there are definitely things in life and different situations I would have approached differently if I would have known what was going to happen. Life is a network of events that is ever changing; the more things change the more they stay the same.
A common theme of my thoughts over the last number of months has been nostalgia. Where did the old days go?? I am honestly just blown away with what has happened over the last number of years. I've learned many lessons, some fairly easy and some very, very difficult. I can't go back and change anything; I have to trust God and believe that He has my best interests at heart. He has led me down the road I am on, regardless of what it may seem like at times. I am who I am by God's grace and will continue to learn and grow.
So what about the times where I wish I could go back and change some of the things that have happend?? Well, I have learned to accept those things and have learned to try to move on the best I can. Life is very difficult at times, but we must find strength to press on. Life is not what it seems, but by God's grace, it will all make sense one day very soon. So for now, I am continuing to trust God for every learning experience and am looking forward to the opportunities that God has given to me. I hope this post made sense to you! I'm not even sure if it makes sense to me.
Keep looking forward and trusting God, everyone! He will never let you down!
